OCDinPDX
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This may sound a bit lame but hear me out.
Back in high school, I had a big crush on this girl who did not feel the same way. I was home-schooled from 5th to 8th grade and had not had a good school year since the 2nd grade so my social skills were very rusty. Because of this, I did not read what she was trying to tell me and pushed her to the point where she wouldn't even look at me. I abruptly left that school after 10th grade and never got to straighten out the record with her.
Come freshman year of college, I stumbled upon her MySpace profile and just for kicks, sent her a friend request. To my amazement, she approved it and for the past four years, I have done nothing with it.
Cut to two weeks ago, I'm 1,900 miles from home and that past. I was getting lunch with some friends at the JCCC cafeteria and saw this girl who looked EXACTLY like my high school crush. Same hair, nearly identical glasses, same figure, virtually identical. I nearly dropped my tray the resemblance was so uncanny. I know it wasn't her but it reminded me of how I made such mistakes back 'in the day' and it pushed me to set things right.
I spent my scarce free time in the past week or so writing her and perfecting a short note explaining what happened and why. I finally sent it to her early this morning in a fit of sleeplessness. I don't know why but I just feel better. According to my message center, she read it but has not replied. That's fine with me...I just feel that I've set the record straight and that a huge weight has been lifted off my chest. If she wants to reply, that's fine. But having done this, I feel so much better. I can move forward again...
Sorry for the long-winded post.
Edit: I'm only 22 so it really hasn't been that long since this whole thing went down.
Back in high school, I had a big crush on this girl who did not feel the same way. I was home-schooled from 5th to 8th grade and had not had a good school year since the 2nd grade so my social skills were very rusty. Because of this, I did not read what she was trying to tell me and pushed her to the point where she wouldn't even look at me. I abruptly left that school after 10th grade and never got to straighten out the record with her.
Come freshman year of college, I stumbled upon her MySpace profile and just for kicks, sent her a friend request. To my amazement, she approved it and for the past four years, I have done nothing with it.
Cut to two weeks ago, I'm 1,900 miles from home and that past. I was getting lunch with some friends at the JCCC cafeteria and saw this girl who looked EXACTLY like my high school crush. Same hair, nearly identical glasses, same figure, virtually identical. I nearly dropped my tray the resemblance was so uncanny. I know it wasn't her but it reminded me of how I made such mistakes back 'in the day' and it pushed me to set things right.
I spent my scarce free time in the past week or so writing her and perfecting a short note explaining what happened and why. I finally sent it to her early this morning in a fit of sleeplessness. I don't know why but I just feel better. According to my message center, she read it but has not replied. That's fine with me...I just feel that I've set the record straight and that a huge weight has been lifted off my chest. If she wants to reply, that's fine. But having done this, I feel so much better. I can move forward again...
Sorry for the long-winded post.
Edit: I'm only 22 so it really hasn't been that long since this whole thing went down.
Good for you OCD. I would imagine you will be hearing from this young lady soon enough.She is probally in that weird state of mind we all get in when we haven't heard from someone in a while.
have to hurt so much sometimes? 
