Deepest Sympathy: my thoughts
You have my deepest sympathy!
I lost my Chow-Chow "Jack-Jack" in November. He died in my arms that night and it was harder than you can imagine.
Everyday I wish that I had that option so he would not have suffered. He was our rescue Chow-Chow used for Pit-Bull bait. Badly abused! Later in life, he developed hip dysplasia and was being treated. All that time for years he was OK.
One day, he just went lame. Didn't and couldn't walk. I knew then I had to put him down. It was killing me.
Then, that Sunday night, he yelped, I came downstairs and saw he was laying down and his bladder released. My wife came down and I told her "Jack's dying, call the emergency vet". He had trouble breathing, then blood came from his mouth as he was licking his mouth several times. He was slowly dying. I could do nothing to stop his pain. He stopped breathing, rushed him to the emergency vet center and they pronounced him dead. They wrapped him in a quilt and I spent some time with him. I looked at him, his tounge hanging out and asked for his forgiveness that I could not help him from suffering. Next day, I had All Pets crematorium pick him up. I followed in my car. That day, I kept a some fur from Jack. I then spent my last time with him.
I know how much it hurts and how difficult it was for you. You HAVE to know it is and was the right thing at that time. Callie has now crossed over the rainbow bridge and you will meet up with her in time. Do not regret your actions! It's more peaceful this way than watching anyone suffer. There are many websites devoted to pet loss and remebrance.
Our other 10 year old female Chow-Chow had back surgery in April and is doing OK, but when she lets me know it's time, it will be very difficult as well.
God bless and take care!
Respectfully,
Deanski